While He Sleeps

Today has been rough.

To say the least.

I won't go into it because that's complainy

and that's annoying.

Some days are filled with words like: 

cry, scream, mess, wet, hot, terrible, exhausted, tears, empty, nothing, WHY?

and on those days those words are the only ones you focus on.

Nothing good can come of today.

But then there is a calm.

and suddenly you can Relax

And you are able to focus on what blessings you have

When Jackson took a nap I was able to relax and refocus

While he sleeps 

I noticed how at peace he is

I noticed his eyelashes and his chubby cheeks

I noticed his little wrist rolls 

and his tiny fingers

I noticed how perfect he is

and even though he is now awake and has to sit on my lap while I type this to keep him from screaming

I love him.

and sometimes it takes complete silence to remember all of this

okay...that's a lie...

sometimes it takes complete silence, a bag of mini reeses, and a pepsi to remember all of this.

Just Life And The Little Moments

School is OVER

at least for the semester...

And it is great!

Let summer begin!!

I love being able to spend time with my little guys and just soaking up every little moment I can

Jackson loves to read!

Or at least he loves to look at the pictures while we read to him.

Ahh these little moments :)

It's kind of funny the things you start to miss when you know you can't be with your little one.

When I first had Jackson and it was just me and him all day everyday I was craving social interaction and just to be able to get out of the house!

So then I started school....

and work....

and was gone from 8 in the morning till 8 at night

and suddenly all I wanted to do was be home.

Funny how you always want what you can't have

haha

to be human I guess right?

I missed his smile and his giggles

I missed his big wide eyes when he found something interesting

I missed watching him learn and grow and figure out new things.

I missed even the not so fun stuff

like changing his diapers and his little cry

I missed everything

So I have really been trying to just absorb every minute of every day and try to remember when I am cleaning up a blow out, or falling asleep eating because I got no sleep the night before

that I could be gone again 

all day every day

And honestly that seems to work

The main thing that I have missed are his little faces.

This kid LOVES to make faces just like I did when I was a baby

This was at my work's summer picnic which was AWESOME!

This one man...

And what has been AWESOME

is my mom is out here to pick up my sister

I may have made her stay for a bit longer 

:)

but I really didn't have to pull her arm much

4 Months

Oh little man 

You 

are

so

CUTE!!

He is four months old (plus a week and a half...I've been a bit busy as of late)

and he just keeps getting more and more fun!!

At four months old I am...

-Weighing in at 14 lb and 8 ounces and 24.5 inches long

-I love to talk and laugh all the time

-I am really ticklish on my neck (especially when daddy rubs his scruff on it)

-I love to be held above people's heads and drool in their mouths. Specifically mommy's

-I can roll from my tummy to my back no problem, and I am SOOO close to being able to roll from my back to my tummy

-I have slept through the night multiple times now but prefer to do it when mom and dad leave me in my carseat

-I have learned how to do the pouty lip, and use it my advantage

-I also suck my thumb when mom isn't looking

-I grab EVERYTHING, and never want to sit down

-I put anything and everything that I can in my mouth

-I am still as cute as ever!

And he knows it!