While He Sleeps

Today has been rough.

To say the least.

I won't go into it because that's complainy

and that's annoying.

Some days are filled with words like: 

cry, scream, mess, wet, hot, terrible, exhausted, tears, empty, nothing, WHY?

and on those days those words are the only ones you focus on.

Nothing good can come of today.

But then there is a calm.

and suddenly you can Relax

And you are able to focus on what blessings you have

When Jackson took a nap I was able to relax and refocus

While he sleeps 

I noticed how at peace he is

I noticed his eyelashes and his chubby cheeks

I noticed his little wrist rolls 

and his tiny fingers

I noticed how perfect he is

and even though he is now awake and has to sit on my lap while I type this to keep him from screaming

I love him.

and sometimes it takes complete silence to remember all of this

okay...that's a lie...

sometimes it takes complete silence, a bag of mini reeses, and a pepsi to remember all of this.