Wednesday, July 31, 2013

While He Sleeps

Today has been rough.

To say the least.

I won't go into it because that's complainy

and that's annoying.

Some days are filled with words like: 
cry, scream, mess, wet, hot, terrible, exhausted, tears, empty, nothing, WHY?

and on those days those words are the only ones you focus on.
Nothing good can come of today.

But then there is a calm.
and suddenly you can Relax

And you are able to focus on what blessings you have
When Jackson took a nap I was able to relax and refocus

While he sleeps 
I noticed how at peace he is

I noticed his eyelashes and his chubby cheeks

I noticed his little wrist rolls 
and his tiny fingers

I noticed how perfect he is
and even though he is now awake and has to sit on my lap while I type this to keep him from screaming
I love him.

and sometimes it takes complete silence to remember all of this

okay...that's a lie...

sometimes it takes complete silence, a bag of mini reeses, and a pepsi to remember all of this.

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Just Life And The Little Moments

School is OVER

at least for the semester...

And it is great!

Let summer begin!!

I love being able to spend time with my little guys and just soaking up every little moment I can

Jackson loves to read!

Or at least he loves to look at the pictures while we read to him.

Ahh these little moments :)

It's kind of funny the things you start to miss when you know you can't be with your little one.

When I first had Jackson and it was just me and him all day everyday I was craving social interaction and just to be able to get out of the house!

So then I started school....
and work....
and was gone from 8 in the morning till 8 at night

and suddenly all I wanted to do was be home.

Funny how you always want what you can't have

to be human I guess right?

I missed his smile and his giggles
I missed his big wide eyes when he found something interesting
I missed watching him learn and grow and figure out new things.

I missed even the not so fun stuff
like changing his diapers and his little cry
I missed everything

So I have really been trying to just absorb every minute of every day and try to remember when I am cleaning up a blow out, or falling asleep eating because I got no sleep the night before
that I could be gone again 
all day every day

And honestly that seems to work

The main thing that I have missed are his little faces.

This kid LOVES to make faces just like I did when I was a baby

This was at my work's summer picnic which was AWESOME!

This one man...
And what has been AWESOME
is my mom is out here to pick up my sister

I may have made her stay for a bit longer 

but I really didn't have to pull her arm much

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

4 Months

Oh little man 

He is four months old (plus a week and a half...I've been a bit busy as of late)

and he just keeps getting more and more fun!!

At four months old I am...

-Weighing in at 14 lb and 8 ounces and 24.5 inches long
-I love to talk and laugh all the time
-I am really ticklish on my neck (especially when daddy rubs his scruff on it)
-I love to be held above people's heads and drool in their mouths. Specifically mommy's
-I can roll from my tummy to my back no problem, and I am SOOO close to being able to roll from my back to my tummy
-I have slept through the night multiple times now but prefer to do it when mom and dad leave me in my carseat
-I have learned how to do the pouty lip, and use it my advantage
-I also suck my thumb when mom isn't looking
-I grab EVERYTHING, and never want to sit down
-I put anything and everything that I can in my mouth
-I am still as cute as ever!

And he knows it!